This the season to procrastinate

When I really wish NaBloPoMo would sweep in save the day, you know, revive my flagging creativity, grab my tongue with a fascinating prompt, I scroll through every prompt within the past twelve months and can't seem to user enough for a brief vapid post about the state of my world.I hate not being able to write. This is probably why so many writers start the day with gin for breakfast because it loosens them up enough to escape their own mind, and by mind I mean the thing that governs paying bills on time, contemplating meals, and cleaning the house. This being the part of the brain that the creative side, the "flamboyant", the "free spirit", the "lush" has such a hard time playing with. What's kind of funny is I have been this way my entire life. I have always been the kind to need to 'escape' the minutiae in which I live in order to really feel peaceful and, therefore, creative. I remember in elementary school, upon getting home I would rush to my bedroom, toting my attention-starved sister who wanted to play, only to slam the door in her face. Of course here i know i'm not really talking about anti-social behavior but rather introversion but they can feel like one and the same sometimes. When my brain feels full, I do not play well with others. And my head, and my heart feel very full and heavy lately. But guess what? I still have shallow, surface level enjoyment still left to share with you. The opening sequence to The Girl with The Dragon Tattoo was just released with the kick ass cover of Led Zeppelin's "Immigrant Song" from the trailer. Trent Reznor is a genius. And Karen O has THE pipes.Same day I found out about this, H&M released their photos of their Girl with the Drain Tattoo winter collection. Makes me wish i was that badass.We head home in a couple of days, back to the home that holds so much nsecurity and yet so much homey feelings. I miss my sisters. I miss my parents. I miss my bro. I miss moozh's family. I miss having a place where I feel like i can just disappear for a few weeks, come home feeling refreshed. The next few weeks are going to be beautiful and stressful. I want to make myself write as much as I can because I always feel better after but sometimes it's really hard to get myself there. Mele keliki maka Bri